Freedom

You never realise
the greatness of the
things that you have until theyre taken away
for a period of time

just sleeping on my own pillow
and using my own shower was a blessing today

feeling determined
feeling free

free from any invisible shackles
especially ones pinned on myself

i dont want to go back there.

Thanks Spectrum.

Pathetic

Pathetic pools
of tears
feeling sorry
for my own loss
brought upon myself

nothing worth the effort
notihing worth the time

listless

apathetic

The Reason

I know the reason that i'm alone right know. the reason that my touch cannot grace the skin of the one that brings me happiness. why i am apart fromhe who makes me whole, complete.

it's not worth it
the pain
the suffering
the losses

and all for what?

i wont go back there
it's caused nothing but loss and pain
we gain nothing
heading in that direction

i pray this is the final straw

we need fresh inour minds the understanding of the things it has taken from us - realisation of the opportunities we've lost because of it - the suffering that it has caused us.

the realisation that there is so much more out there for us - so much more to life.

we have no void to fill - we can and have ad our own happiness
we just need to get it back
find that place whare happiness comes from the green grass the shining stars - simple pleasures.

we'll make it.

A false Sence of Relief

Untied the knots
interwoven during
moonlight shadowcasts

undid woven tapestry

as i lie with you
and you under me
one stcih from you
one from me

forewords ad backwords
forewards and backwords

our new fabric
churned out
while hidden
from view

in our
dry throated forms