The Days go by slow
but i am reminding myself
daily - hourly
that i must maintain this huge stockpile of
P A T I E N C E
that i can't get
O V E R W H E A L M E D
by the stresses and unhappiness that
i've brought upon myself...
that i've got to

keep busy
work hard
be creative
confide in friends
pinch pennies

and E V E N T U A L L Y
i'll end up somewhere that i've been hoping for all along

my lovers arms would be enough right now.

hedonism.
i need to forget about
what i want right now
and decide what i want in t he future

since every choice i make now
directly effects my future and the time that it will take to get to where i want.